I’m sorry everyone but I’m not in the right mood now. Not exactly the happy go lucky, enthusiastic, optimistic person now so I apologise before hand if I didn’t reply you on Facebook, Twitter, Email or SMS or any form of communication device.

You know, it started off with the whole friendship thinghys? I pretty much a damn EMOTIONAL person, and everyone out there knows I care loads about my family and friends?

Yeah, and friends? Seriously, I honestly don’t think I’ve found ANYONE that can really share things with me? Like this person will come over and give me a hug and tell me everything’s gonna be just fine? Or someone that I can listen to whole day on the phone and never get bored? Maybe its just me, maybe I’m just a (stupid) perfectionist who keeps trying to hard to please people, hoping that someday, somewhere, someone out there will do the same for me.

(Yeah right, dream on Wei Jian).

And family? Long story huh? I try my best to be a good son and brother, but I almost fail. FAIL miserably like a loser.

Don’t bother me people. I am seriously too tired to REPLY or TALK to anyone now. I don’t wanna console anyone now. I don’t wanna do anything. I don’t even feel like writing this. Why the ass am I writing this?

FML. Seriously. FML.

SERIOUSLY. PEOPLE. WHAT THE HECK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

Whataya Want From Me (Adam Lambert)

Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I’m afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn’t give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see
That baby you’re beautiful
And there’s nothing wrong with you
It’s me – I’M A FREAK.
But thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly

Yeah There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn’t even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up on me
I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

So
Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up
I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in
I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Anyways, I’m wearing a goggles on my head for april’s fools day today. Haha and nearly got scammed by Red Sports. Plus Wei Yang is coming back today!!! Haha.

Just read Afiqah’s blog just now and she had this long post about friends and it like got me thinking about my friends and everything. To be honest, I’ve thought of it like suddenly a few days ago. Like
whether have I really found true and close friends or not. Haha. Yeah the emo periods are back again. Zzz.

Not going PE. Haha. Blue slip. (:

Well, I finally made a very difficult choice to leave ODAC and go on to Swimming. As much as I’m happy to be part of the swim team now, I’m really sad to leave the ODAC FAMILY, especially my awesome Typhoon. They have been the loving-iest group during OLC 1 and all the trainings we had together and it has really bonded us together. I wish them all the best and hope they’ll forgive me for leaving. ): And of course, to thank my G.Is Veronica, Daniel, Joan and Yu Rong for their guidance and care. (:

On another note, the swim team badly needs members, more trainings and a sense of togetherness or we are not going to win anything. Seriously.

On to other stuff.

10S33 has been the most wonderful, sexiest class ever. All the camwhoring with Kristy, Rachel & Si Kai in class. The talking/bitching (xD.) with Charmaine, Janna, Pei Yi, Afiqah & Ruth. The awesome dudes (only 7 of us!!!) Andre, Wei Hau, Wen Wei and Kok Wee. On the tree house just doing nothing. The very nice and smart girls Kelly, Su Ping, Johanna, Bibiana & Clara. The veterans of school, IP peeps, Kai En, Amy, Hui Ying, Placida, Jo-Ann and Kimberly. All the awesome people. Love them to the core. (:

X-Country was like saddening to me. I know like 181 position is good, but I really expected better from myself. I WANNA WIN. SO I BETTER TRAIN HARD. EVEN WEI LOONG WON ME. AND HE KEEP SAYING HE NEVER TRAIN. ASS. xD.

But AQUILA WON. OMGOSH. AQUILA. AWESOME AWESOME. WE ARE GONNA WIN HOUSE CUP.

AND 10S33 won 3rd!!! HAHA. WE SHALL AIM FIRST NEXT YEAR. Plus the imbar girls from our class like Janna (16th), Hui Ying and Pei Yi who got 20 and 30 something. And CLARA WHO GOT FIRST!!! (:

Haha. And Afi got the most tired face while Jiang Han got the most inspirational face. xD.

Class Lunch/Outing finally at PIZZA HUT. (: Too bad I didn’t join them for Cycling and ICE CREAM CHEF.

OG BBQ. SEXY PYXIS 8. (: (: (:

And vote for Yu-E k!!! She’s super nice!!! (:

STUDY STUDY STUDY BEFORE I DIE.

Secrets (One Republic)

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til’ all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I’ve said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I’ve been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It’s like we’re chasing all those stars
Who’s driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don’t really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don’t let me disappear
I’mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

Reporting. Met Clara at general office. Then saw Aidil. The concourse is like PACKED. Haha met the awesome babe MEL TAN. Haha. KAHYEEN IS JEALOUS SHE HUGGED ME. xD.

Anyways. Haha saw like my 4E gang and then like random people here and there. The leadership board. Ryson and his soccer dudes. The IP people like Jiang Han, Zhen Feng etc. Yeah (:

PYXIS.

Haha. To be honest, I wasn’t really high the whole day cos like it took me a while to settle down.

And met new friends in P8. (: Our OGLS; De Rong, Eileen, Noreen, Ming Xi. Yeah. And then the freshies; Nicholas, Joanna (spelling?), Jessica, Yuyi (spelling?), Estee, Jun Hao (not our school one), Ling Zhi, Charmaine, Wendy, Mimi & Denise (spelling?)

Yeah. And the cheers and games everything awesome. MASS DANCE. Haha. Seeing Shervin Lim dance makes me wanna laugh. xD.

DAY 2.

More high today. Haha. I was debating Econs and Geog cos the geography teacher seriously made GEOGRAPHY sounds super interesting, like he PACKAGE THE PRODUCT until super good. SERIOUSLY. WAH. Like damn interesting and funny. But I concluded econs (another 2 years of TORTURE!) will be the best choice since its more practical? Yeah. Though its really hard to think I’m going to miss out the fun in geog.

Dry games. And mass dance. And thats that. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

COUNT MULA aka Adeeb.
DANIAL YAP (who keeps forgetting I’ve changed to a temporary number)
and one of my best friends RYSON YAP. Haha. (:

Started listening to Chinese songs ago. I seriously love 林宇中 songs. His love songs are like super super duper duper LOVING. (:

林宇中 (活到一百岁)

glad that one of my good friend is happy in his new school! (:

2009 come and gone. And the first month of January is gone. Seriously.

So just a few RECAP:

1. Lunch with Hafidzhin
2. Lunch/Movie with Daryl
3. O Level Results
4. Posting Results
5. LIGHTNING CHALET
6. 2G Class Gathering
7. 4E Class Chalet
8. SPEEDLIGHT @ KALLANG CAGE
9. NEW SCHOOL

Kinda lazy to update. But very thankful for God for being there for me and giving me a lot of chances. (:

Brand New Day (Fireflight)

I’m waking up
The world is turning
The sun is shining again
I’m holding on
To things I shouldn’t
It’s time to let them go
I’ve been on a losing streak
Hit so hard I couldn’t speak
But when I hear Your voice it fades away

And I can hear You say
It’s a brand new day
The pain goes away
I’m headed for the door
And I’m going home
I’m going home
I’m going home
I’m going home

Your love, it burns
Away my darkness
You guide me when I’m blind
You are the light
That shines inside me
Showing me I’m
So much more
When I’ve been on a losing streak
Hit so hard I couldn’t speak
But when I hear Your voice it fades away

Take me into Your arms
My home lies within Your heart

Think before you speak. That’s what I learned.

ANYWAYS. I’m NOT DONE WITH PLANNING. And I’m really tired. Hope I can finish by tomorrow morning before I leave. ARGH.

This one’s for you my friend; who reads this for new music and movies. No matter how many bad days there are, I believe you can overcome them all. So smile. And eat that ice cream. (:

I WAS LIKE FREAKING LATE TO MEET ALDRIN FOR LUNCH. I’M SO SORRY DUDE! Was watching CHUCK. Which was ironically introduced by him. AHAHA. (:

Met Wei Xuan on the bus. And then lunch opposite TJC and then went to school. Walked around for a while and then went home with Yu Da.

Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly,
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’ll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it’s not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn’t so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I’ll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven’t slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I’ll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.
I don’t feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I’ll think of you… tonight.
I’ll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I’ll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won’t forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I’d whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

what’s the point of giving me hope? everything i do never works, i don’t even exist in your world.

Wrecking my brains to plan for 3 different events. Argh. Wish me luck.

SHOPPING WITH MY GOOD FRIEND TOMORROW. But still don’t know where to go leh. Zzz. Haha.

Colbie Caillet – I Never Told You

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there’s no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I’m not around you
It’s like I’m alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can’t believe that I still want you
And after all the things we’ve been through
I miss everything about youWithout you

maybe its just me & my stupidity to believe something can actually happen for real.

HAHA. Like once in 6 years. HAHA. Which isn’t exactly a bad thing cos they were in AWE of my room. Haha. And the house. But that’s besides the point.

ANYWAYS. We had P & W. And we had lessons. And Lynn talked to ask about her AGENDAS. So pretty much that. And then we discussed CELL T-SHIRT which I think is gonna come up freaking awesome. PLUS PLUS CELL CHALET. HAHA. (: Which I’m so hyper up about. AND MY CLASS CHALET/GATHERING which I’m rushing to plan now. SO SORRY GUYS!

ANYWAYS (again.) JIA TECK was super funny calling the MACS people. LOL. In the end, we ended up walking there to eat. LOL. All the unglam photos and everything.

OH YA. Daniel was taking video of my robot vacuum cleaner. LOL.

ANYWAYS. After lunch, we came back home. And then we played like MP3 + UNO. And sent them off. Yeah. OK. I GOTTA GO SLEEP. NEED TO EXERCISE SOON!

Lights Off (Jay Sean)

I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired
It’s you that I’m missing It’s like my brain is wired up
and there’s a glitch in my system
You’re like a drug and now my blood won’t stop itching
I’m in critical condition
someone let me out of this prison
It’s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I’m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

That’s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won’t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won’t take one step
I can’t see what’s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can’t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can’t see at all (no, oh no)
can’t see at all (at all)
cause it’s like somebody just turned all the lights off

I don’t understand how one minute I just had it all
now I can’t reach you cos I’m tied up with this straight jacket on
I can’t breathe (breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe)
I can’t see (see, see, see, see, see, see, see)
It’s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could have sworn that you are still my baby
I’m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

That’s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won’t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won’t take one step
I can’t see what’s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can’t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can’t see at all (no, oh no)
can’t see at all (at all)
cause it’s like somebody just turned all the lights off

Used to see my world in color girl
when you left me it’s like my world turned gray
turn my winter into summer girl
why won’t you help me turn night to day
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t think at all
honestly it feels like I ain’t living no more
can’t say no more, can’t see no more

Baby that’s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won’t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won’t take one step
I can’t see what’s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can’t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can’t see at all (no, oh no)
can’t see at all (at all)
cause it’s like somebody just turned all the lights off

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pretending to be happy; when deep down inside i feel like shit.

I got lost in AMK Hub. Haha. Because I didn’t know I was actually in it. LOL. Went to Pepper Lunch and had he fill me in with the details of the life in R.I + Taekwondo stuff. Which sounds super cool.

Then we watched JUMP! at Cathay but there was like very little people in the cinema. Daryl rated like 5/10. Haha. I’m ok with the show except that it was more like a recount story rather than a proper movie. So yeah. Happy Ending and stuff. But the dances were pretty much sleek. Haha.

Photos!

STYLO MILO SIO! xD.

Haha. OKOK. I downloaded Left 4 Dead. Awesome game. Haha. (:

I like the way you sound in the morning,
we’re on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard

I like the way I can’t keep my focus,
I watch you talk you didn’t notice
I hear the words but all I can think is we should be together

(chorus)
every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I’ll shine for you

whoa oh I’m feeling you baby
don’t be afraid to jump then fall, jump then fall into me

baby, I’m never gonna leave you,
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I’m gonna stay through it all so jump then fall

well I like the way your hair falls in your face
you got the keys to me I love each freckle on your face, oh,
I’ve never been so wrapped up,
honey, I like the way you’re everything I’ve ever wanted

I had time to think it oh-over and all I can say is come closer,
take a deep breath and jump then fall into me

(chorus)
every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I’ll shine for you

whoa oh I’m feeling you baby
don’t be afraid to jump then fall, jump then fall into me

http://www.elyricsworld.com/jump_then_fall_lyrics_taylor_swift.html

baby, I’m never gonna leave you,
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I’m gonna stay through it all so jump then fall

the bottoms gonna drop out from under our feet
I’ll catch you, I’ll catch you
when people say things that bring you to your knees,
I’ll catch you
the time is gonna come when you’re so mad you could cry
but I’ll hold you through the night until you smile

whoa oh I need you baby
don’t be afraid please
jump then fall, jump then fall into me

baby, I’m never gonna leave you,
say that you wanna be with me too
cause I’m gonna through it all so jump then fall

jump then fall baby
jump then fall into me, into me

every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I’ll shine
and every time you’re here baby, I’ll show you, I’ll show you
you can jump then fall, jump then fall, jump then fall into me, into me

yeah